How we each love

If either of us were to die today (yeah, it's autumn and I'm being morbid), I am convinced of a couple things:

• We'd each feel pretty confident we had loved the other as well as we could, and that would be true.
• You would be more sad over my absence from your life, whereas I would be more sad over not loving you as well as you deserved, even though I love you with my entire will.