some days a meme asks a harmless question

what did your parents make you eat 

that you still don't eat now? 

soap, my friend said

and I wondered what 

had issued forth

from his mouth 

to cause that lesson

Then I thought

my dad's penis

and it got dead silent inside

as i recalled the taste of urine

put it back in your mouth, he said

i don't want to, i protested

embarrassed, ashamed 

then don't ask your sister to do it

his daughter, he didn't say

but that's when i should've known i'm not his son

i hadn't known what blow me meant

and then i still didn't

some days crashing come the memories 

smashing me to pieces

trashing my happy facade

way worse was yet to come

after he ate the bullet

and the next one took me under his wing

some days I think it'd've been better

if my single mom 

hadn't been pro-life