In the name of Jesus I renounce the lie that I am emotionally and psychically (for lack of a better word, since I don't mean it in its usual sense) alone and always will be.
I know this overpowering, consuming feeling is not truth. I also know that there are many ways this emotional dynamic can undo me.
In my dream, I was trying to move toward someone I love. I don't even know who it was, but in my dream they were the only person who mattered to me. They may have been the only other person in existence. But they were on a distant planet, at the other end of the galaxy, and I saw the scale of the miniscule progress that I had made, and I knew that in a million lifetimes I could never reach them, and I was filled with despair.
My thoughts and feelings upon drifting off last night were less hopeful than my last post, and perhaps formed the foundation for such a disturbing dream.
God (if you're here), help and save me.
Friend - and no, I'm not referring to the object of my dream, whomever that might have been; I'm only using the singular so that anyone who might read this will respond to this request as if you are the only one who will - if you're out there, please pray for me.
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