Unrelated thoughts, maybe, from yesterday and this morning:
There are some "parts of ourself" that are not nearly so valuable as we - or our culture - delude ourselves that they are, and we will never really miss out on anything if we manage to let them go.
I hate it when I've been doing a great job of guarding my heart and mind, choosing the things I should, and my unconscious mind grabs my attention and jerks me back down into the mire of carnality. But I also know this is the result of the accumulated experiences of my life, including decisions I myself have consciously made over my decades. Perhaps such dreams will be with me for my whole life as a result, and that would not be anything but my just (spoiled) desserts. But God sees the future which is hidden to me, and it may be that he is merely in the process of drawing a contrast for me between what has been and what will be, that I will appreciate more fully because of what I am experiencing now in my mind. (Now, to figure out how to come against that combination of feelings - best left vague than analyzed, I think - upon waking.)
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