In my dream, we were in a house I've never been in, with several other people, and I sat down on the sofa to join the conversation. Teri got up almost right away and left the room. I don't think that's where the dream started, but that's the first part that I remember. In just a couple minutes, she announced she was "going canvassing," (this was clearly a dream!) and started heading for the door.
In my dream, I felt annoyed with her, but decided that I should probably support her, and this would be a chance to spend time together doing something she wanted to do. So I called her name and asked her to wait. She dismissed me with an "I'll be back soon." At that point, in my dream I was upset that she was leaving without kissing me goodbye, which in real life we never do. So I looked around the wall to where I could see her going out the screen door, and she was walking out it with another guy who was there.
In my dream I felt crushed. I knew she liked this other guy, and that she was choosing this activity to be with him instead of me. Then I woke up.
In my waking, I knew this scenario was ridiculous. Yet in my waking I felt the echoes of our tumultuous past, in which the "canvassing" would have been alien, but the rest of the emotional dynamic was very accurate. In my waking, for the first time in a long time I felt our past hurts, rather than remembering them in the distance. I am grateful that this nonsense is behind us, and annoyed with my brain for reminding me of it. And I am hopeful that my bride's dreams never reminder her of the hurts I have inflicted on her.
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