Monday, November 10, 2014

Reforming (phase 1), Our Personal History of Salvation (step 5), session 5

After a weekend of no sessions, I'm officially behind now. But I can't really complain that the weekend was wasted. Especially, the Unbound: Freedom in Christ seminar on Saturday was a gift. The Unbound ministry uses the analogy of an onion, peeling away layers bit-by-bit, and I can see how that fits. I've learned more now about how we give spiritual influences a foothold in our lives, especially through habitual sin and extramarital sexuality. My Unbound prayer session focused on the spiritual results of abuse received and abuse committed, but there are a world of other choices I've made that have spiritual consequences, too.

I didn't have a prayer session during this seminar, and the easy reason why is that my involvement providing music ministry during the prayer sessions kept be from participating in any. But there is another reason that I dare not deny: I must still renounce the lie that there it's okay to fall back upon the endorphines when I feel alone and rejected. I suppose they're my escapist drug of choice.

And that probably brings me at least partly in touch with today's session, which deals with the personal sin of squandering the gifts God has entrusted to me. The reading today is Mt 5, 14-30, and it seems to me that the warning at the end is applicable to the gift of holiness when we bury it rather than live in it.

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