Thursday, September 30, 2010

More doubt

Christ will not say to me what he said to the Jews: You erred, not knowing the Scriptures and not knowing the power of God. For if, as Paul says, Christ is the power of God and the wisdom of God, and if the man who does not know Scripture does not know the power and wisdom of God, then ignorance of Scripture is ignorance of Christ. - St. Jerome

I long for the days when I was confident in my faith, when I knew that God was real and that my faith was well-founded, when I had confidence that the historical accounts of the first apostles had been handed down whole and unfiltered, and that my sin and shortcomings were forgiven and fulfilled by a merciful and loving God.  It isn't that I'm ignorant of the Scriptures.  It's just that I'm ignorant.

The emotional lift I get from praising God, from singing and proclaiming His perfect love: is that real, or is that simply a matter of my brain bathing itself in its own chemicals?

The implications of this question for me, personally, are best left unexamined.

1 comment:

  1. The question itself, however, is worth looking into. For me, though, the burden of proof, as it were, must lie on the side of disbelieving. Until proven otherwise, I must invest my faith in Him.

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