Complete fraud, or work in progress?

Often my thoughts aren't what they ought to be.
Often my feelings aren't what they ought to be.
By grace, many of my actions may be what they ought to be,
but perhaps not most, and by no means all.

I often don't know who I am,
only know what I ought to be,
and that that is not what I am.

But a friend of a friend has shared the following quote:

I am not what I ought to be. I am not what I want to be.
I am not what I hope to be. But still, I am not what I used to be.
And by the grace of God, I am what I am. 
                                              - John Newton

The renowned reformed slave trader was never more wretched than I have been, and yet grace calls me to a gentleness toward myself that is not in my nature.