Drifting

When I grabbed Br. Guy Consolmagno's book, God's Mechanics: How Scientists and Engineers Make Sense of Religion, from the parish library, I figured it would be right up my alley.  It's been a long time since I struggled with my faith, since having a profound conversion experience - a personal encounter with Jesus Christ through the work of the Holy Spirit - in my mid-twenties, and seeing as I'm pretty much a fellow techie, I figured this book would help me understand how these aspects of my life work together for me.

Now I wish I'd never picked it up.  I find myself disagreeing with Br. Guy at nearly every turn, being tripped up by his assumptions.  In fairness, he's quick to admit to them himself.  That doesn't keep them from becoming a stumbling block for me.

If Jesus was fully human, he must have experienced times in his life like this.  If he's God, he's going to have to get me through this one.  I haven't doubted the truth of my beliefs in a long time - it has all seemed to fit together so well.  And so much of my life revolves around my faith that I'm pretty uncomfortable with the implications of my newfound doubt.