Two lists of people

If you've been away for at least a couple days, start here before proceeding.

List 1:

Teri Christina Melissa Cassie Fr. Paul Mom* Chuck and Mavis* Herb and Maureen Gary* Tom, probably Andi Sandy

Dawn Marie Beth E. Charles Shirley, Jackie Fr. David Lynne and Allan Chuck Rick even Nancy, at last Kathy, Steve Kevin

Karen, Pat John and Gina Tom Chuckie* Steven Rob Mark Steve and Lina Fr. Dave Faye and Clive Bruce Jesus*

List 2:

• Terri M^c**
• me***

List 1 is everyone I can think of whom I know knows and who has shown me mercy and acceptance. There may be others who know, but I don't know for certain that they do.  There are certainly lots of others who partially know.  Even if I suspect that someone has only tolerated me for the sake of family harmony, they make this list, for they have treated me with compassion.

List 2 includes those who judge me harshly.

I always struggle to prepare myself to encounter the one person who reinforces my natural opinion of me, as will certainly happen this weekend.  I have to remind myself that it'd be pretty arrogant of me to actually believe list 2 over list 1 - I mean, just look at the disparity!  Luckily for me I've never been very arrogant. :-\  No, really.  :-/  Hardly at all!  :-|

Oh, the asterisks represent people who've died.  If my mind ever changes that to "people who are dead"? Let's not go there.

(** This person moved to list 1 at my nephew's wedding in the summer of 2010.)
(*** This person may have finally moved to list 1 as of 2014, but sometimes struggles to remain there.)