"I Just Do"

Sometimes it becomes your life.

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Even if the reasons were all wrong through the decades:

• because no one else will have me
• because I fell into her eyes and couldn't climb back out
• because she loves me
• because I need to be loved
• because she's the mother of our children
• because I'm committed to our marriage
• because she has forgiven me
• because I don't deserve her
• because I'll die without her
• because she deserves to be loved

Eventually, there accumulates decades of what amounts to "because I just do." 

I think you deserve better than this. You deserve for someone to know why they live for every moment of life with you. But I will continue to lay down my life for you, and continue to refuse any temptation to take it back up again for myself. Sometimes this seems to be all I have to give. And as I told you - as we told each other - just last week, after you there won't be another.

I don't know why I love you, why I still choose you, but this choice seems to have become who I am, and I am convinced I can only be the man I am called to be in this choice.