The Magnificat (cont.)
And Mary said, "My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior. - Lk 1, 46-47
I know I promised more reflection on this wonderful canticle. I'm just not sure I have it in me on this day when my past seems empty, my present feels devoid of friendship, my future feels hopeless of any improvement, and my life looks like an end-to-end failure to even bury the treasure entrusted in me and restore it to my master upon his return.
Somehow, God, if my life is going to magnify you today, you're going to have to make it happen.
I grapple to believe an Advent's coming . . . Confession
I no longer feel unforgiven, as I often did when I wrote these words. Now my struggle with hopelessness is very different, and I find myself withdrawing because no effort at engagement has resulted in any improvement.
So I try to remember what I wrote a mere two days ago, that God does what we can't, on a day when my heart is heavy and I'm also struggling to believe in God. (I'm so grateful that he healed our friends' daughter's hearing. It's what I'm clinging to at the moment.)
Karen, pray for me.
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