Yesterday evening you left the house to take the grandchildren home without saying goodbye in our customary way; even after I pointed that out, you still returned home and also didn't greet me on your return in our customary way. You soon retreated downstairs - which was probably best, actually - where you remained until after I was asleep, even though I made it a point to come down and bid you goodnight in our customary way.
So in the middle of the night, when I got up to use the bathroom and you asked me about the extra pillow in the bed, was I really supposed to say that I started out the night lying next to an extra pillow because it seemed like as close as I was going to get to a hug? That I was feeling hurt that in your anger toward me you didn't feel inclined to share affection with me? That I was feeling very lonely?
I know you don't like to be disagreed with concerning the grandchildren (the early argument). But if you really wanted me to go along with you to take them home rather than working on music, you shouldn't have expected me to read your mind about it (the late disagreement).
But we are called to love tenderly, even when our partner isn't acting in a way that makes it easy for us to love. I must overcome this.
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