Prayers for a friend having surgery today

Sure, it's minor. But that doesn't make it insignificant. Wish I could do more to help with logistics.

Slept quite poorly last night . . .

. .. and feeling quite drowsy this morning as a result.

Today's word

shunpike /SHUN-pyke/ - a side road used to avoid the toll on or the speed and traffic of a superhighway

I was really hoping that the etymology of this word would be more interesting than the word's lack of mystery might suggest. Indeed. I think I knew, though, that toll roads predated automobiles by quite a long time. 

Nice weekend . . .

. . . mostly helping a friend via cooking, but also had a good swim workout and had some nice grandchildren time.

"Four"

What is: "The number of occasions since Sunday that my wife has chosen entertainment that she knows I 'don't like' (from 'mildly disdain' to 'practically rage against'), either while I was present or when she knew I was going to be."

Well, the Jeopardy answer might actually be "Five," but I don't remember Tuesday well enough.

Looming failure

actually, i have failed already; i just didn't "finish failing," as i tend to think of it. i'm resisting, but not with all i have and not fully relying on my Savior. i'm believing the lies that my failure is inevitable and that this self-indulgent pleasure is desirable, instead of renouncing them.

Stupid brain.

18 days? Really? Is that all the chastity and determination you have? you

Weak excuse of a man.

let me take this moment, then: in the Name of Jesus, i renounce the lie that i will inevitably fail at walking in holiness, and the lie that the pleasure i have sought my whole life is desirable; in the Name of Jesus, i repent of impure thoughts and fantasies, and of self-pleasure; in the Name of Jesus i renounce the spirits of bisexuality, carnality, adultery; in the Name of Jesus, i embrace the truth that i am weak, and i lean on His strength to accomplish in me what i have been unable to accomplish for myself; in the Name of Jesus, i break the hold of any spirit with which i have ever participated in these areas that i have renounced, and i command them to leave right now and never return, in the Authority of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.

I hate it when . . .

. . . my tinnitus sounds like Morse code in my ear. (It's driving me about crazy right now. Just shifted tones, too, but got quieter, at least.)

. . . the restroom stalls are taken.

. . . I have stupid feelings that I have to be alone with.