i may not know who i am anymore
or what i believe
but i know this: 
i am not a man who chooses to hurt his wife. 
there have been days
many days
when this one thought
has kept me alive

a potentially life-threatening habit

so i have this decades-old thought habit that, if i say what it is, will cause the reader to become alarmed and insist i should go (back) into therapy (again) to fix. since i'm not going to do that, let's agree that i'm just going to start trying to break it and you're going to pray for me.

For they could not love you, but still your love was true

These woods really are quite lovely . . . 

Today's word

pungle /PUNG-əl/ - to make a payment or contribution of (money) — usually used with up
2 : pay, contribute — usually used with up

I don't look at the WOTD every day now, and this is my first new word in a long time.

i think too much

i'm about to leave the office, where my inside and outside realities are in harmony (i am alone) to go home where they are not. 

i'm tired of this.

what if

i really only profess because i don't know how else to live?