Beginning Monday, my work area will be positioned with my back to the room. 

I hate that.

(yet another echo of an abused childhood)

My brain doesn't seem to be working

i don't know if it's depression, lack of sleep, or both

Being there

Rough day for our daughter and grandchildren yesterday. Don't think we're getting the full picture, but then, we really don't need it. Just need to be a pillar for them.

For godddaughter, too.

We all need somebody to lean on . . . 

Thank God for work

where there is no question of who i am

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iguessistilldontbelieveideserveanybetterthantokeepfeelingthisway

Today's word

friend /frend/ - 1. someone who doesn't consider it an imposition - or a favor - to make time for your shit, when they get a chance, but also 2. someone who understands that you don't always have time for their shit 3. someone who isn't willing to watch one of your lowest moments even when the internet keeps serving it up on a silver platter

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Don't mind me. Just trying to drown out tonight's awful memories.