i feel like i've lost the point of my life, if it has ever had one, and i just want it to be over. i'm tired of longing.

Today's word

soi disant /swah-dee-ZAHNG/ -  self-proclaimed, so-called

A rare completely new word from the WOTD column. I'll take it. I'll likely never use it, but I'll probably recognize it should I ever encounter it in the wild.

this isn't your fault, dear reader

Unrelated:
This is going to be really challenging to apply. I have "one-downed" myself my. entire. life. We do the same thing when we describe what we have survived. As a survivor of an alcoholic home, my father's suicide,  and repeated childhood sexual abuse: my childhood really was that bad, and overcoming it (through therapy) really is an achievement.

i am so tired of being so tired

Today's pageview zip code

I haven't done one of these in a long time, again due to the combination of not seeing the count every time I'm in here and, when I do, them either not being a valid zip code or not representing someplace I've been. Today's is both, though:

West Branch, IA 52358 - We pass through this zip code when we visit our dear friends in the Omaha area. It's about two-thirds of the way along the drive there.

Today's word

There haven't been many new words for me of late in the words of the day. Fortunately there's the occasional new one in the dictionary devil puzzle:

bathymetery /bə-ˈthi-mə-trē/ - the measurement of water depth at various places in a body of water; also :  the information derived from such measurements

I saw this at work on our recent trip to Tennessee for the eclipse, as our host was able to let us know the current depth of the water wherever we were on the Clinch river. 

The Shack

 As beautiful as all this is, it's nothing compared with how we see you.