Today's word

anhedonia - feel free to look it up

, and not one of them can replace you.

my last regret:

preferring the darkness to the light.
or, all the ways i have walked or will  walk in my fathers' footsteps.

i miss you, Karen.
my first regret: not being a better brother.
please pray for me.

we've had a bit of a breakthrough

in which we're both putting more emphasis on our relationship. for the first time in decades, i don't feel like my concerns in my marriage are being ignored. i feel hopeful. 

it's an unfamiliar feeling.

So, here i'm not

taking action

at this moment, i am on the phone with the veteran's crisis line.